My blows came back to normal, even setting a new record last Sunday. Since then things have dropped back a little, but hopefully not enough to be worried (about a 4% drop from the record blow). This is all generally encouraging, in that I can get some rejection, be treated and bounce right back after a couple of weeks. I've held the pred at 10mg for 5 days now, delaying dropping back to 5mg because of the little drop in blows.
I find myself quite a stressed person these last few weeks. Work pressure doesn't help, with nebulous projects and a lack of resource making me worry. That combined with impending endoscopy and consultation about the nissen fundoplication, the continuing anxiety about lung function, and the Transplant Games in two weeks time is resulting in a bit of a tricky period.
I don't know if it is because of this or because of drugs, or sugar levels, but I have had unsettling dreams for the last couple of weeks. I know the steroids can give you nightmares, but mine are continuing even through the reduction in dose. I guess it is a combination of factors.
The dreams are generally meetings with doctors where I am told things are going terribly wrong, or, like last night, where I start coughing up CF-style sputum again and the doctors say there is nothing that can be done. I wake up and breathe, try a few little coughs, and after a few minutes convince myself it isn't real. But it is certainly not conducive to waking up feeling relaxed and ready to face work and the world. I hope it stops soon.
8 months ago